Overthinking

Last night while rolling left and right on my bed trying to get some sleep - I thought to myself; I hate myself for being a VIRGO at this moment. WHY?

Coz I always always always always ended up getting not enough sleep because I went crazy b*tch overthinking stuffs right before bed. At 1.30 am; I ended up crying my eyeballs out because I can't controlled my damn thought(s). Everything came in instant - problem at work, financial problem, hanging relationsh*t problem and of course problem that did not yet occur yet I still think about it. My body were so tired and sore but my brain decided that they want to go down memory lane - what I did wrong at work today? Why I must wished him a good morning text? Why I can't move on? Why I can't save more money? Why I'm insecure? Why I can't make my parents proud? Why I can't drive stick? Why Why Why and every damn each of WHY(S) always cause myself to cry - for stupid reason and woke up with bloody swollen eyes in the morning! 


For real.
If only my brain have an on/off switch - surely I already turned it off ages ago.

Ugh.
Then at 2.30 am, I grabbed and hugged the teddy bear(s) that he gave me as a gift years ago - I fell right into sleep comma.
I didn't even heard the alarm this morning.

Sigh. xx


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  2. Heyya sis :)! I've been go through your blog & what I have to tell you here is, "you are not alone". Depression does kill a lovely person. It starts from our thoughts & eventually will affect our actions towards others, as well as ourselves. Pray. Keep on praying & ask God to help you in overcoming this. Sometimes, things are not as worse as we thought. Yet, because of that d*** depression ended us up like this. Be strong & stay strong. God be with us all the time. Feel Him, rely on Him. He will help you go through this. Be happy, stay happy :). God bless!

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    1. Hi!
      I'm not sure who you are but Thank you :)

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