Last night while rolling left and right on my bed trying to get some sleep - I thought to myself; I hate myself for being a VIRGO at this moment. WHY?
Coz I always always always always ended up getting not enough sleep because I went crazy b*tch overthinking stuffs right before bed. At 1.30 am; I ended up crying my eyeballs out because I can't controlled my damn thought(s). Everything came in instant - problem at work, financial problem, hanging relationsh*t problem and of course problem that did not yet occur yet I still think about it. My body were so tired and sore but my brain decided that they want to go down memory lane - what I did wrong at work today? Why I must wished him a good morning text? Why I can't move on? Why I can't save more money? Why I'm insecure? Why I can't make my parents proud? Why I can't drive stick? Why Why Why and every damn each of WHY(S) always cause myself to cry - for stupid reason and woke up with bloody swollen eyes in the morning!
If only my brain have an on/off switch - surely I already turned it off ages ago.
Then at 2.30 am, I grabbed and hugged the teddy bear(s) that he gave me as a gift years ago - I fell right into sleep comma.
I didn't even heard the alarm this morning.