Good day Earthlings.
By the time this post is up, I'm probably sitting on the floor with my make up smeared and ugly crying face; somewhere over there. The things is...I'm always so sure what I want in my life..If I want it, I will work my asses off like crazy until I can get it..If I don't want it, I will throw it as far as I can until it cannot catch up with me and bit me off again..but these few weeks has been really hard on me. I don't know what I want anymore.
This really sucks! Because all the while, my life were driven by my passion, my principle, my dignity and my competitive / perfectionist side but everything is gone now. Maybe because I was too dissapointed with everything; I keep asking and blaming myself.
Everything so perfect before. Exactly as what I've been dreaming for.
But here I am today. Trying to find closure for myself so that I can move on. Forget the past and keep my head high up.