Its so NOT OK to feel lonely in relationship
[Random Rant post]
So I finally blurted out everything last night. Thinking about it; I don't even regret a single things I confessed to him. He's like 50% get what I mean; and another 50% blur. All the while, through our two separated life together, we are both busy. Each occupied with works and activities. But his; is a never-ending super-pack busy-ness. Its not that I don't understand his schedule but its the way he want his schedule to be that I dislike the most. Guy is super ego on things like this. I was just asking him to have a least 1 - 3 hours times that he mostly spend either gym or jogging and replaced it to spend it with me; in a fucking week! But he said he can't. Oh well, at least I warned him the consequences. When I said that I don't feel our relationship same as previous, he asked me "What's wrong with me? What did I do?" The obvious answers are already been blurted out. I don't why I feels so seriously pissed when I already tell him what's the problem and then he answered me "What can I do? I can't do anything." Its your fucking schedule, get a hold on it.
Because I can feel myself pulling off out of this relationship, that's why I thought this problem is much bigger. But being a guy, he definitely think that this is just a random debate on stuffs we are not agreed on. Come on! Telling me that you're also thinking of me when you're busy? Man, everyone can do that. You don't talk. But show it that you're thinking of me. Make time for me. Make time for us. Is it really hard?
Well, accuse me of being selfish.
I am being like this because I still fight on for this things that we've shared for 3 years plus.
Pardon me for being not-so-understanding, its much better for me to tell than for me to leave; just like that. Without a single word.